A new year has come finally. I don’t know if I actually wanted to see this year but here we are celebrating. We are hoping that this year will be better, that we will experience every moment of everyday and remember each month unlike last year. I am grateful to God for this opportunity to build something better in 2021.
Where am I in life? Well it’s not my birthday yet so I’ll partly answer this. I am at a place where I have managed to shed dead weight. I think a lot of us have been on that boat, letting go of useless relationships. We went through a lot and we realised who was really a friend and who was only there for a ride. Unfortunately the ride was rough and we got to see a lot of who people are, and that has been a great thing to realise. I actually don’t understand why sometimes we allow those relationships to continue. I have achieved a lot and I realised this year how strong and tough I am. The Universe or God, was with me, but it’s always been there and I feel disgusted by how some people try to take the credit. The great thing is the truth always comes out and you start to appreciate the spirit and guidance within.
Lockdown was a mess, it still is but I think most of us are getting the hang of it now. People have died but people die everyday. We as a human race are always trying to control death and nature, feeling paranoid when we realise we can’t control everything and are vulnerable. No matter how much we develop in technology, medicine or just within ourselves we can’t always come up at the top. Almost giving up at the face of a challenge but thank God some of us are always there to pave the way, I mean frontline workers, scientists, good leaders and our support networks. Here we are giving thanks to them and not forgetting ourselves, because we got up and carried our weight. We learnt how to relax and just let nature run it’s cause, we found ourselves and maybe lost ourselves, but here we are, still breathing, life is really something.
Continuing the journey this year, well I know I have a long bucket list and I am going to live life in every moment of everyday. If 2020 has taught me anything, it’s that nothing is guaranteed, anything can happen to upset the world so I will stop apologising for being myself and take back the life nature gave me. You are never too old or too young or too anything to experience the best of life. Why should we let someone else take charge of us? We are individuals, unique to ourselves and yet too many of us throw that away, for what, approval? Did that approval save you from lockdown, probably not, I think it’s high time we know our priorities and work on them no matter what because we deserve it, that’s why we were given our lives.
Yeah, I think that’s it. I am grateful for my life through the hard times and good times, it inspires me and drives me. Life is what you make it and I will make mine liveable for as long as I can.
Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer
Pain!
You break me down and build me up, believer, believer
Pain!
Oh, let the bullets fly, oh, let them rain
My life, my love, my drive, it came from…
Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer.
-Imagine Dragons