I hate life at the moment I won’t lie. I said something terrible to someone I love and I am apologetic for it. Sometimes life just cuts you at the knees right as you see the finish line. You just sit there with your broken legs, crying and feeling sorry for yourself.
I want to let you know that this is part of life. We live in a life cycle that sometimes repeats itself. It’s frustrating I know, but so what, you’re still here aren’t you? I think life is better when you have a support system, whether it’s friends or family or strangers, anyone will do as long as they have best interests at heart for you. Yes I know it’s difficult in this day and age but it’s not impossible. I talk to the Samaritans when I’m experiencing the dark hole and they always come through for me, so a lot of thanks to them. I have people around me who make life a little easier and I’m grateful for those people too.
The good news about life is that, it’s born of polarity, so it means where there is negativity, there’s bound to be positivity eventually. I think that’s what we have to hold onto. I know some negative experiences cannot be undone or taken back, but trust me, someone will at least give you some ice cream. In order for us to grow, we need to experience difficult things and learn from them. We are stronger than we let ourselves believe. I saw this quote on Instagram and it said that trees grow their leaves each summer, only to shed them in winter, only to grow new leaves the next summer. I don’t know if trees feel the cold during winter but wouldn’t you feel like giving up if you always lost your leaves the moment you needed them the most? Enjoy the positivity while you have it so that when the negative comes, you have no regrets. And we’re human, we can actually prepare for most things so that the negativity doesn’t hit as hard.
As someone who struggles with mental illness, I have come to appreciate the negative world but I also know there is good stuff where that came from. I think we have come to believe in positive things only as a society, we celebrate success but shun failure, but it has advantages too. Without failure we wouldn’t be able to succeed, sometimes positivity comes with a negative attached to it. No one has it all, not all the time at least, even rich people experience death and sickness, no amount of positivity is free from it’s negative counterpart.
So what I am trying to say in a long-winded fashion is always work for positivity but don’t forget to prepare for the negativity too. Appreciate the positive and live every second like that’s the only moment that matters, because maybe then you won’t fall too far in when negativity knocks at your door. Just because the worst keeps happening, or just because the first half of your life has been difficult, don’t give up, because you might find that positive experiences are waiting for you in the future. Don’t let negativity define you, only you define yourself.